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Charlotte's Web of Deceit
Jul. 11th, 2013 12:39 amCharlotte's Web of Deceit
I'm not sure what the proper etiquette is when one's mother is in a neuro rehab center regarding visiting her and spending time with my friends.
Rene tore Dad and me a new one on the 4th for taking over an hour to buy dinner for Mom. She couldn't eat what they were serving her so we went to buy her a salad. And we stopped at Sprouts for juice drinks and a few other drive thrus as a lot of them were closed for the holiday. Again, he went into that condescending tone (In case you haven't noticed, your mother has cancer and had a stroke. You can't go on living your life as if nothing happened!!)
After that, I've been declining invitations to outings and dinners from my friends since I can't live my life as if nothing happened. So I just park my ass in Mom's hospital room, watching her watch TV or reading books or checking her out for fresh sores.
I'm going to crack. I can't go back to work like this; I'll crack and do something stupid and possibly get shit-canned which might be both a blessing and a curse as I need the cash badly yet it would be the end of insanity and stress.
Saturday Amanda, Hillary, Andre & Robert invited me to hang out and eat at Denny's. I had to blow off the movie invite part since Dad said he wanted me at the rehab. But once Mom was in bed, I left.
Basically, I don't want to risk pissing off Dad or Rene so I've been lying through my teeth, faking other problems to spend time with my friends. I still visit Mom almost every single day, but I get bored just sitting there reading books. Frankly, I'm afraid to say/do anything since Rene is so anal retentive about anything that can hurt Mom. He rebuked my the other night just for saying that Mom had a full load with rehab. He said not to focus on the negative about her busy schedule. It's not like I said that she was never going to get done. If he's going to be like that, he can do this shit on his own.
I was at training today and I lied about having tech issues in order to get a few hours with Amanda-- we went grocery shopping and then out for frozen yogurt at Menchie's.
I hate lying. But if it's the only way to buy some free time, so be it.
I'm not sure what the proper etiquette is when one's mother is in a neuro rehab center regarding visiting her and spending time with my friends.
Rene tore Dad and me a new one on the 4th for taking over an hour to buy dinner for Mom. She couldn't eat what they were serving her so we went to buy her a salad. And we stopped at Sprouts for juice drinks and a few other drive thrus as a lot of them were closed for the holiday. Again, he went into that condescending tone (In case you haven't noticed, your mother has cancer and had a stroke. You can't go on living your life as if nothing happened!!)
After that, I've been declining invitations to outings and dinners from my friends since I can't live my life as if nothing happened. So I just park my ass in Mom's hospital room, watching her watch TV or reading books or checking her out for fresh sores.
I'm going to crack. I can't go back to work like this; I'll crack and do something stupid and possibly get shit-canned which might be both a blessing and a curse as I need the cash badly yet it would be the end of insanity and stress.
Saturday Amanda, Hillary, Andre & Robert invited me to hang out and eat at Denny's. I had to blow off the movie invite part since Dad said he wanted me at the rehab. But once Mom was in bed, I left.
Basically, I don't want to risk pissing off Dad or Rene so I've been lying through my teeth, faking other problems to spend time with my friends. I still visit Mom almost every single day, but I get bored just sitting there reading books. Frankly, I'm afraid to say/do anything since Rene is so anal retentive about anything that can hurt Mom. He rebuked my the other night just for saying that Mom had a full load with rehab. He said not to focus on the negative about her busy schedule. It's not like I said that she was never going to get done. If he's going to be like that, he can do this shit on his own.
I was at training today and I lied about having tech issues in order to get a few hours with Amanda-- we went grocery shopping and then out for frozen yogurt at Menchie's.
I hate lying. But if it's the only way to buy some free time, so be it.
